Worlds Apart 2: Endless Questions

The moon and the stars above were still beaming as the rendezvous of gays below was in full force and eventually making a lot of sense. My Aso and I, tagged as 'mga paminta' (straight-acting gays or SAGs), were still on the hot seat and it seems that everybody has prepared endless questions. Why SAGs are generally fascinated to fellow SAGs? Why can’t they entertain the thought of having intimate relationships with effems (effeminate gays)? Have you had any sexual encounters with girls or, at least, sexual fantasies? Who’s top? Who’s bottom? Are your parents aware of your deeds? Are you still both attracted to or distracted by good-looking men in, say, a mall?

Like a TV talk show, it was all complete with commentaries from the hosts, follow-up questions from the audience and intervals. The only difference lies in the fact that we are only ordinary people questioned by ordinary individuals out of nosiness . . . and no camera rolling. I sometimes wonder why I was enjoying that conversation. But it’s already in me. I promised to appreciate the small things and to appreciate people (check out the very first post of this blog here).

While we tried to answer their questions, they also shared their thoughts. “Nakakainggit, actually, ‘yang mga ganyang klaseng relasyon,” said Totoy, an effeminate gay. He is in his early 20s and has a young, charming straight boyfriend. Unlike he and his lover, he said, I and Aso could be intimate if we choose to, with no worries but the prying eyes of the public. But there is no doubt that love or mutual feelings exist.

But wait. Did he just say, “…love or mutual feelings exist?” I smiled but felt sorry for yet another revelation. It is tantamount to saying that theirs only survive with his lone devotion to his boyfriend – a love that is a one-way process. He knows that his boyfriend doesn’t love him and given the fact that the guy is heterosexual, the possibility that he will fall in love with him is slim... if not, remote. In common views, he can’t love him. Yet again, SAGs and effems greatly differ on this one. Like in a boy-girl relationship, a SAG looks ahead to a give and take relationship. He will love and will get love in return, not only respect and some sort of a cooperation. He won’t suffer in silence and don't wanna be tagged a willing victim.

Embark upon the reality and frills of straight men being paid for sex by effems, on the continuation of this post next week.